:: Entertainment ::

This is another song by Beyond, called "Do not hesitate" (Bu Zai You Yu). I love this song too. May everyone in this world (with good intention) will not hesitate anymore and go for their dream, go for their love ones... anything (good things), just go for it! ^_^ Enjoy~

**02:27-02:50, notice his fingers... WOW! He was DAMN GOOD~!!!

Truly Love You...

Oh my~ I have been staying in my room, never stepped out of my house for two days. Damn! This is boring. I was free and bored like hell ( do not ask me to study, that is never possible to happen, LOL~) Anyway, usual style, sleep, eat, chat, movies and gaming. I have finish the japanese series Great Teacher Onizuka (GTO) by Takashi Sorimachi for n-times in my life. =.=" Yet, this series was still nice, interesting, highly recommended. ^_^

Have been listening to the songs I have in my notebook: those I have originally, those sent by friends and also those I copied from friends, and WOW~ there are whole bunch of songs and I got to listen to those that I never listen for long. I believe this happens to lots of people in this world, whereby you were listening to a song, or some songs at certain period of time, and when you listen to it again after a long time, it gives you the same feeling again you have during that time, as if you were back to the past. I believe smell and sound helps a lot in people's memory, it helps us to remember, and most important, to feel. And, I always believe that music is a powerful medium, as a reminder, as to comfort emotions, even as to brings out the deepest and hidden emotions of people, makes people moody, sad, cry, happy, and more.

I experienced it a lot. I listened to those I never listen for long, it reminds me of my past; happy stuffs, sad stuffs, loads of stuffs. It reminds me of people I met in my life. And I can tell you that music can give a big impact to my emotions. I will tell you guys more on those songs that reminds me of important persons in my life and important times in my life in coming posts. I like the song "Truly Love You" (Zhen De Ai Ni) by Beyond, it reminds me of my mother, and it is a very meaningful song.

Anyway, until here for today, gotta sleep. Will be going to Cheshireoak again tomorrow, LOL~ Will update you guys about that. Until then, CHEERS~

"Truly Love You", dedicated to my mom, LOVE YOU MOM~! ^_^

Love this song~!! A very nice video clip from Beyond's concert.

ENJOY~

:: Entertainment ::

This is one of the song in Full House which I loved most - "I Think I".

Do enjoy the mtv with scenes of the drama in it.

P/S: Please notice the height of the guy and the girl (especially during their wedding), ^_^ I guess that kind of height for a couple is cute, isn't it??

:: Chester Trip ::

*YAWN* I was very very tired while I was blogging. Today was a nice day, I went to Chester - Cheshireoak for shopping, LOL~ It was a place with all branded outlets such as Nike, Adidas, Levis, and so on. I met up with a friend from Manchester, then headed to Cheshireoak with my classmates along. Bought some IMPORTANT stuffs and 2 tops for myself, and I was happy because everyone thinks it looked nice on me. ^_^ I tried to look for a pair of Nike sport shoes for my bro, but I can't find any that suits him best yet, shall look harder, ^_^ (By the way, Nike shoes are very very worth to buy, some of my friends bought 2 pairs each, =.=" )

Extremely tired today, I have not got enough sleep for the past two days because I had to wake up early for trip, yet I stayed up for chat with friends from Malaysia, and I even waited for the emails from an important person, ^_^ Tired, but satisfied and happy. Four more days to go, then I am here for 2 months already, still have one month to go for my degree course, I guess I will miss most of the lecturers over here. By the way, as time goes by, I found out that there are reasons that makes Iqbal treat us in a strict way in Malaysia. We had a chat with him, all of us even himself realised that the way he treated us causes a huge effect on us. Anyway, Iqbal was not that bad after all. ^_^ He planned for us a barbeque, disco night, and a dance night (prom night). Looking forward for all those occasions.

I decided to stay to further my studies previously, but something, or I should say someone changes my mind. I am looking forward to go back to Malaysia, to KL again, and I hope I can see this person as soon as I reach, hopefully, ^_^ Time is precious, as well as chance; Shall treasure time, as well as chance. I really miss this person a lot. I miss all my best friends a lot: Corine, Ah Chor, Ming Inn, Kim Cheng, Ai Hoon, Suxi, Ric, Ah Boy, Toh Jeng, Daljit, erm... and a lot (sorry for those if I left out your name, I miss you all too), ^_^ The MOST important people that I miss MOST are my family: Mom, Dad, Bro, I miss you all. Last, but not least, I miss FOODS in Malaysia~!!! LOL~ (that was what I always mentioned no matter to friends in Malaysia or friends over here) I swear that's TRUE!!!

Anyway, a lot of things happened lately. I realised that I am still not mature enough in thinking, there are many things that I never thought of, many things... I hardly stand in others' position to try understand their feelings, responsibilities, situations. Though I always said that every individual in this world is different, but I could hardly understand the same ideology. Besides, I still have the 'emotionally unstable' problem to be cure, =.=" Guess I am still not good in handling emotions (though my friend said I hide it very well), I know there is still space to improve myself. Shall control it better and think of others' situations this time, in depth. Hendak seribu daya, tak hendak seribu dalih! Will try my best to 'upgrade' myself now, ^_^ I guess that is the reason that makes me not worth for anyone before, sigh! Will ganbade this time, Ganbarimasu~!

Anyway, still got a lot of thinking job that I have to work on, shall go shower and have some rest now. Gotta wake up for my emails, LOL~ Until then, cheers mates~! MUAKS~

At Riverside (Do not know what river it is, will find out, LOL~)

Pedal Boat ^_^

A very very cute baby who will get blush (paiseh), CUTE~

Cool Hair~ Punk Style! LOL~

How I wish my future baby will be as cute as him, LOL~ CUTE~

Me & Iqbal

Me & Alan

My fav top I bought ^_^

P/S: Do not ask me why I snap the photo of the white top that way but not with it on the bed or on the floor, it is because my bed is white as a whole (like hotel style) and the floor is dirty, =.="

Questions...

I am having a holiday starting today, ^_^ So, I've been up for chat last night, slept kinda late and woke up kinda late too. I went to get some groceries and then headed back to my room, nap, eat, chat, movies... That is all that I can do over here on holidays, >.<" Sigh! That's life! Anyway, going to Chester tomorrow, hope it will be a nice trip.

Having sitting in the room, chating, eating, watching movies for the whole day, so I worked out my mind after my shower (Need some exercise inside, ^_^) I have asked this question to myself many times, and I have asked my friends about it too. Why do you love someone? Is it because of the feeling of 'LOVE', or because of some other reasons? Maybe some of you will say, 'Of course there are reasons that makes me love someone', 'I've seen the best in him/her, therefore it comes the feeling of love for that person', etc. Different people holds different perceptions. Some will say, 'Do judge the person before you make the decision', but what is the classification for that? Would you know if people have the intention to lie to you? And when after being cheated, you will say, 'I should not have trust that he is such a good person, with great job, appearance, personality, bla bla bla~'... You will start to regret. So, what for you judge at the first place? You do not even believe that you yourself have done such a judgement back then.

"If you judge people, there is no time for you to love them; Love is the feel of being cherished and needed, the feel to make the person happy and satisfied. No matter to love, or being love, it is something happy, and it is a kind of happiness."

I always believe that when you love somebody, there is no reason at all. It is a kind of feeling, and it is an indescribable feeling. He or she might not have a great job, great appearance, or anything that is great, but you FEEL that this person IS great! He or she might not did something that impressed you; he or she might unimpressed you with something in fact, who knows? When the feeling strikes, it just STRIKES. When you started to love someone with the feeling of 'LOVE', would you ever regret, or claim that those stuffs you have done is a mistake? Some of you might said 'yes', but I think 'not really'. It is because you do not start to love that person because of those things, you love because you LOVE! Even if it is wrong, even if he or she is bad, even if... whatever it is (LOL~)... You would not think you are wrong, because you love them. You know you love that person more than anything else. There is never a reason for LOVE. This is what my best friend told me, and I believe it applys to every single person in the world, "Do not frown, cause you never know who is falling in love with your smile..." We might just need something as simple as that to love someone, the 'FEELING'.

There is never right or wrong in a relation, or should I say, to LOVE. You might love someone you should not have; you might hurt someone who loves you but you do not love them; you might leave someone who loves you because you love somebody else; you might choose a person who does not know how to treasure you... Who knows, there is still a lot of "you might...", there is a lot of possibility, isn't it? Are those something which is wrong? Question here: To be with somebody you love once and hold on to that person to the end, no matter you still love him/her or not in the end; maybe because of responsibility, maybe because of certain reasons, maybe because it is hard to let go, maybe you think that it is something bad to make certain decision... (Again, there is a lot of 'maybe' in this world) Is that consider right, or does that consider 'LOVE'? When you love, please love with all you have; When you don't, please never lie to them, never take people's love or feelings for granted. To learn to let go, is to learn to reduce the pain caused; give them your blessings, that is what you can do best.

"To love, deal with as much courage needed to let go."

This is what I heard before, "Every relationship, the feelings among partners will fade after three years, why would you choose a new partner when you know the same will happen to that relationship in the end?" Answer: "Everyone knew that they will die someday, why do they still live?" This might not apply to every relationship, because if it does, you would not be here in this world, cause everyone did not work out a great relationship, as well as your parents, correct? But do think carefully, to live with a person til the end of your life, will you choose someone you do not love? Even if it does include some 'partner changing' process in between, does that mean that the person is not sincere enough when love? (Don't mention of those playboys or playgirls) Does that mean the person who seek for a true love for his/her life to walk them to the end of their lives, is someone who lack of faith in their love? (Erm...too much of ??? <--- questions)

Ya, enough of crap, >.<" Anyway, gotta sleep, have to get up early tomorrow for my trip. Will update you guys about something fun (hopefully), until then, ADIOS~ ^_^

Another Hibernate Period

WAH~~~~~~!!! LOL~~~~~~ I have passed up my assignment today, and I will be kinda free for the next two weeks. So, what's the plan?? I will be going to Chester this Wednesday and going to Scotland next weekend. 20 of us will be going to Scotland, so we will rent 4 cars and I will have my first drive in UK soon, LOL~ EXCITED~~~ Anyway, will definitely update you guys about the trip, but I will be unreachable for the next weekend, LOL~ So have to wait till I am back...

Just in a blink, it is already the 8th week of my course, time sure flies. ^_^ And when time passes by, we will notice that we know more, not only we learn more academically, or learn more about life; it is that we learn to know those things that we do not know, or have never figure it out last time. We might thought it is only the past, it is already the past, and might not want to know more about it, we have to move along. But no, when you realise something that you never understand about the past, something that you never discover about the past, something that is out of your expectation about the past, you will know and understand, TIME WILL TELL... I do not know whether ya'll understand what I mean, but it is a kind of feeling, whereby it is never be able to describe to others unless you feel it on your own.

I woke up in the middle of the night, with something that makes my mood bad. I lie awake, I listen to songs, then I watched those Stephen Chow old movies to make me feel better, and yes, it does helped. There was not much of happy feeling, because I have thousand of questionmarks in my mind, unsolved. But, I can finally got back to sleep, thanks to Stephen Chow. Anyway, will solve my questionmarks one by one, and it takes time. And when time TELLS, it helps in solving (I know its crap =.="). Sooner or later, I will get my answer for everything, no worries. The haze in my mind has started to cleared off I guess. ^_^

As I am too free (in the mean time, >.<"), I searched for a lot of MTVs and series, old ones new ones, everything. And a friend of mine sent me this MTV which makes me feel that I was back to the past (the time when I was still in secondary school). It was a very nice song, a very nice MTV, the guy was SO ATTRACTIVE~ (COOL, yet CUTE; BAD, yet GOOD; MAN, yet CHILDISH, as in like a kid that needs to be pampered) ^_^ The series of it were very very nice too, and I LOVE HIM once, LOL~ So, enjoy the song and the mtv, hope some of you will feel the same about this mtv, brings ya'll back to the past. Will post kinda frequent for these few days I guess, until then, CHEERS~ ENJOY~ Muaks~~~

BAD, in his way, but GOOD, in a way... ^_^

To Be Remember Always - Memories~

Again, another weekend, time does flies... ^_^ Have mentioned about the coursemates gathering, but not yet told you guys how was it yet... Yes, it was fun! It was to be considered my very first time to really gather with my coursemates, eat, drink, talk crap, and fooling around (I do not really join the gathering last time in TAR College, =P). And there is something that ya'll really have to know, those who knows me, knows I crap a lot. But, for ya'll information, our course got another 15 "me", some are more terror than me, that makes the party really really fun, funny and joyous one (you will know why is it funny later) LOL~ =.="

We have a coursemate that was having his birthday celebrate on that day, which is Louis, my buddy. We have quite a lot of foods prepared, two cakes, red wines, ice creams and etc. We ate a lot, very full that day, LOL~ We chit-chat about school stuffs, making fun of each other, played around, snapped photos, video recording, and again, it was fun. Anyway, I noticed all of us have grown up. We do crap, but some topic has changed, their thoughts, actions... Being away from home, time, all of these really makes people grow up, independant, it makes changes in people. Anyway, it is something good I think, good for those that leave their home for the first time. ^_^

Louis and I actually planned to go for a drink that night, but we postponed it to the next night. Just both of us went for drink because we just merely go for drink, others want to dance. We chat about our past, about the differences in TAR and LJMU (Liverpool John Moores University), our feelings of being here. Chat for around 3 hours, finished a jug of beer, then we headed home. I have been drinking for two days continuosly, one day red wine, vodka, another day beer, and I was said by a friend that I am alcohol addicted, =.="

These few days, I am having a lot of 'thinking' job to be done, sigh! Life... It is always difficult to make decisions for your life no matter from which aspects. It is a simple "Yes" or "No" answer, but there are so much of circumstances and consequences to think about. Every answer changes everything. For example, sometimes we might be in the dilemma in making decision as one of the decision might cause the lost of something, another might not as likely for you to take such an action. Life, always complicated.

Anyway, it is time for me to rush assignment again. Below are some photos to prove that me myself and my hometown gang are not as pro in acting (means not as lame) as those in broadcasting group, LOL~ Enjoooooy~ Until then, see ya!!

The Leng Zhai(s) in our course

(From left: Panda, Kelvin, Louis, Jin, Daniel)

Leng Zhai(s) acting cute =.="

Carlsbergs & Broadcasting Group ^_^

"The Carlsberg Sixteen" >.<"

Normal...

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Here we go!

Acting cute...

Starting to get lame...

Dramatic... (Lame-est =.=")

"Happy Memories"

Production of...

LJMU Summer Program 2006

BA In Mass Communication Students

(aka Broadcasting Group in TARC)

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P/S: We are normal, you know who I mean... LOL~

:: Because I'm A Girl ::

It was a VERY HOT day~ Just as hot as in Malaysia, my smile is still as sunny as usual (that's what my friend told me about the smile I have), but I feel cold somehow... Sigh! Anyway, yesterday I had fun at the gathering, will blog about it in my next post because still have not receive the photos and video clips from my friends yet, those are funny, need it a lot, LOL~

Wanna talk about this mtv I have watched long time ago, a very touching mtv, a very very nice song. Most of my female friends watched it with tears in the end, some male friends did the same, most of them were touched, me too. ^_^ This song is called "Because I'm a Girl", a korean song, sang by Kiss. I love both the song and mtv.You guys can check out the mtv below, with the subtitles along to assists us in understanding the meaning of the lyrics.

I have watched the mtv for a few times, and I thought of something (might be crap but its just what I think about the story of this mtv). First, the girl helps the guy to wash his hair in the saloon but she accidentally wipe the foam across his eyes. In 'return', the girl was also blinded because of the chemical used by the guy for developing photos. Both of their profession, with the need in use of certain chemical, one is shampoo, another is 'chemical' (do not know what it is called). Both accidentally spilled it on each others' eyes, but what the girl did was a small mistake, what the guy did was a regretful mistake. Sigh! Same did to the eyes, but it was just so different in the consequences.

Second, the girl was waiting for the guy to pick her up during a rainy night. She looked at others going off happily sharing the same umbrella. She waited and longing for the same, but in the end the guy took out another umbrella for himself =.=" The girl was disappointed and she rather stays under the rain without the umbrella. Girls' expectation are so simple, they expect something simple that can be easily acheived, whereby no matter how bad or good the situation is in, as long as they are with their love ones, they are satisfy. However, guys wish for something so different. They want to protect the girls more than anything, but they did not notice that they actually neglected girls' feelings, neglected the simple need from girls, make them disappointed and hurting them at the same time. Why is it the most simple thing is the most difficult to acheive? Girls want something simple, all, or nothing.

Third, why does the guy wants to sacrifice his own pair of eyes for the girl? Why did he cried before the operation? The guy was so sad, blaming himself for everything. He went for motorcycling, thought of their happy memories, he knows, he'd rather be blind than looking at the one he loved in suffer. He cried because he could never see her again, her smiling face that brightens his day. Yet, that is not what girls' wanted, they rather being blind but with the one she loved, the one who loves her dearly staying with her and guide her.

Question: What would you do if you are the guy?

I answered this question with a touching way and a crap way, LOL~ Touching : To keep the eyes, stay by the girl's side, guide her, love her more than anything, as long as I live. Till the day I die, I'll donate my eyes to her, for she can helps me continue to look at this world. Crap: Donate one eye and each of them will have one eye to see, fair enough, right? LOL~ Anyway, it was a very touching mtv, a very nice song (I have the mtv, the mp3 as well as the lyrics, LOL~) I especially like the part, 04:27, where the song fades under, sounded blur, with echo; until 04:53, the transition of the song from echoed to normal, it was damn nice! ^_^ The most touching part I found was the narration of the girl; at the same time she was watching tv, eating ice cream and she cried. Sigh! Because she is a girl...

This is the nicest song that I kept playing recently. So, any comments and requests, feel free to leave a message to me. Would love to discuss with ya'll about it. Anyway, tired now, have to sleep, LOL~ Enjoy the mtv, the song and the lyrics, love ya'll, goodnight~ Muaks!! ^_^

P/S: the girl looks so preety at 06:28 - 06:35, PHEEWIT~ (though she looks attractive all the while >.<")

Sometimes People Just Do Not Understand...

Finally, passed up my assignment, finished my presentation, WHEW~ But we will never get to know the results until November, because it is a system just like taking exam, we'll never know how we did, we will only get to know whether we have passed or failed the course. Anyway, again, there are people who were sad about their presentation, cried; some were happy because they have finished the hardest presentation in their life time; while me, still the same, can't care too much about it, as I have seen too much of those --> No pain, no gain, but sometimes you can't gain back as much as the effort you have put in, the pain. With great expectation, comes great disappointment. Therefore, I do not like to put in high hopes for my schooling stuffs now and then. LOL~ ^_^

Receive some funny messages yesterday, won't brief on the content but will discuss on my feelings about it. These messages does not make any sense to me. There are people in this world who assume they are so important, to the extent that they thought people will be too free, problem free, go and disturb them, their lives, playing around with them, their feelings, and so on. I was like..."HUH??!!" Anyway, it was some naive messages, I would just laughing out loud and said:"Who gives a damn about you? Am i too free or what? I can't even finish bothering about my own problems and why the heck are you coming to me about your own problems? Somemore I have nothing much to do with it, WTF!? =.=" (Came across these kinda feelings before?) But I can tell you guys, those sms-es are damn naive and damn funny, makes me --> =.=" "Kids!" LOL~ Anyway, they live their lives, I live mine, can't even control what my brain is working on, do not mention about others' thoughts. Sometimes, people just do not understand that they are the already the luckiest ones among all, sigh!

Have to stop here, having a party and gathering tonight with coursemates, ^_^ Gotta run, will update you guys about it if it was fun, LOL~ Until then, ADIOS~

P/S: Would like to share some nice MTVs or clips with ya'll from now onwards, if possible, enjoy! ^_^

My Idol and My Fav Song ^_^

(Guys who played piano are so ATTRACTIVE~ LOL~)

:: Entertainment ::

Just to share something with you guys while I am not free to blog for these few days, enjoy! ^_^ Will get back to ya'll soon, cheers~

Lonely~ Im Mr.Lonely~

Another weekend starts, another die hard weekend starts also >.<" Have to pass up an assignment on Monday, and got a presentation on Tuesday, sigh! Anyway, too bored and lazy to start my work, so I shall blog first. LOL~

Yesterday was Thursday, a day to get our marks for assignments. Still, there were some who were happy, some who were sad (for me, neither, just like my friend said, I do not bother much about it =.=") A friend of mine was sad, because she got a lower mark than expected. She walked kinda fast while on the way home, does not want to bother about anyone. I was kinda worried about her, so while others were buying food and she was far ahead, I followed behind. Not to bother her or being busybody, I just kept a distance, make sure she is fine (Another thing is, I am not good at consulting people =.=").

Along the way, I was thinking. What will a person wants when he or she is sad? To be alone? Someone to cry with? A shoulder to lie on? Or someone to make them happy? Maybe there are still loads of different needs, because everyone needs something different, based on their personality, character, past experience, mind set, etc. And I realised, no matter what a person wants when he or she is sad, someone should always be there for them, no matter family, friends, lovers, or maybe teachers I guess?

The 'someone' need not to be close with you, need not to do anything for you, they just need to be there, a physical support. A person who is there, even when you want to be alone, guarding you; A person who is there, when you turn around and wish someone will be following; A person who is there; when you turn around and wish to cry with, a shoulder to lie on, opened ears, mouth shut. It is something very simple, it is called 'support', a physical one, not mentally. A feeling that you are not alone, not lonely, someone will be there for you, no matter what. (Erm... I am not a lesbian, nor a bi, ok? It is something in my mind during my walk home. Im alone that time, following, gotta have something to work in mind also right? =.=")

Yup, I like to walk alone, always walked alone, with lot of thoughts in my mind. I kept on asking questions, kept on seeking for answers. I could be said as a lucky person, I could deny it too, because I have a lot of mental supports from others, while no one is following behind. But I wish others will HAVE, SOMEONE, to follow behind, to be there for them, to make them a lucky person. ^_^ (I can blog this better in Chinese, damn it... >.<")

Anyway, I was just sharing my opinions. Some of ya'll might disagree, just feel free to let me know your thoughts. Until then, cheers my mates! Happy weekend! ^_^

P/S: Highly recommended songs

• "Invisible Wings" (Ying Xing De Chi Pang) by Angela Zhang Shao Han
• "Saranghe Yo, Only For You" (Saranghe Yo, Zhi Dui Ni Shuo) by JJ Lin
• "You Love Her So Much" (Ni Na Me Ai Ta) by Lee Shen Jie & (forgot the name, LOL~)
• "Hostage" (Ren Zhi) by Amei
• "Hurt So Bad" by Hins, Zhang Jing Xuan
• "She Told Me" (Na Nv Hai Dui Wo Shuo) by Huang Yida --> nice mv!!!

World Cup Final 2006

Today was a sunny day, but it was cold =.=" Weather over here is kinda weird, sometimes it was hot (not as hot as in Malaysia, but still hot), sometimes it can be very cold and windy, just like human thoughts, UNPREDICTABLE~ Anyway, another ordinary day, but went library to watch a movie as the need for the coming assignment (some of ya might think its kinda cool, because watching movie is part of my studies... and yes, it was cool, LOL~ sometimes...) Will be a little bit busy for this week as I have to pass up assignment on Monday and I have a presentation on Tuesday >.<" (Still cool? That's my life in Liverpool...) So, might not be able to post new blog so frequently, but will still try to keep ya'll up-to-date about my life (I need a break too, ok? Rest, for the sake to move on ^_^)

Enough of crap, let's get back to the topic of last weekend. The next day after Manchester trip, was the World Cup 2006 Final Match. My friends had decided to sit in a pub and watch the final match. Frankly speaking, I am not a football lover, and never once in my lifetime I spent time watching football with my eyes stuck on the television (but now I had once). I am more fond of badminton. ^_^ Anyway, we went down a pub, especially for sports lovers, called "The Sports Cafe". Not much of people there that night, but with a bunch of noisy Chinese kids (us =.="), watching and cheering, fooling around and snapping photos during interval. LOL~

We ordered two jugs of beer, I had a glass of it, kinda mild one. After that, a best friend of mine and me decided to have a try on shooters. As a "white rat" (experimental person) for my friends, I ordered a shooter with the name "Late Tackle" -> vodka, baileys, creme de banane. For your information (it was so damn obvious), shooters were meant to drink in one shot. For the first time in my life, I drank my first shot that night (I have a stupid and funny video of me drinking having that shot, let me know if interested to have a look, LOL~) Anyway, I looked funny because the very first shot in my life taste like fever syrup (those pink in colour) >.<" Kinda weird taste and it burns all the way down the throat. There goes my first 'shot'! Nothing special happened, I did not went drunk, it was~~ nothing. =.="

So, my friend and I decided to have 5 shooters for each of us on our next visit to pub, LOL~ One of it named "Blow Job" looks nice (LOL~), with cream on it. Maybe it was just a small drink, not much of effect done. The first time I got dizzy due to alcohol was the time I drank two bottles of Carlsberg straight, empty stomach >.<" (And I had to celebrate my roommate's birthday that night, no chance to sleep until 5am @.@ ) One thing that I experienced and figured out that night was: "alcohol does not makes people lost their mind, or did something unconciously! It is something that makes your mind clear, clearer than ever, makes you understand what you actually wanted, longing for, and gives you the courage to go for it". ^_^ A good thing, or a bad thing it is, I do not know. It was just a piece of my mind.

Well, enough for today, will post up some new stories of my life for you guys next time (if I have, LOL~) Until then, cheers~! Muaks! ^_^

Group photo (Louis as cameraperson) LOL~

Me, Doreen, Hoay Nee (Lou Po), Jun, Gie

Me & Louis

Me & My Beer

My First Shot - "Late Tackle"

Manchester Trip :: Part II ::

It was raining today, and I had to walk under the rain while going home, =.=" Anyway, it was an absolutely normal day, go for class, then library, buy food, headed back home. Sigh! What the... heck...

Continue about something fun, my Manchester trip - MU Stadium. ^_^ To go into the stadium, with a tour guide to take us around, it costs 6.50 pound = RM45.50 (Student price =.=") But since my point of going to Manchester mainly because of this stadium, so I would not miss the chance going in. Took quite a lot of pictures, saw the stadium, visited the press conference room, press lounge, players lounge, players changing room and so on. To be frank, I am not a football lover, but I did feel the happiness of being there, it was like... WOW~ Amazing...

The tour guide gave us a lot of information about who will be sitting at which corner, who will be in which room, which tunnel players use to go into stadium, history and stuffs. Very detailed, but I did not concentrate, just kept on snapping photos with friends. LOL~ Anyway, it was fun, felt the HAPPINESS filled around the air, LOL~ The tour took around one an a half hour, it was a very nice experience.

After MU Stadium, we headed to the Lowry, a building with all branded shops inside, with summer sale price, LOL~ I bought a pair of Nike shoes, 32 pound (RM224) normal price, but I bought it for 15 pound (RM105), LOL~ Nike shoes you know... Another three of my friends also bought a pair for themselves each. So anyone who is interested about it, can let me know, but I will need to based on my capability to take those home with me, LOL~ Will try my best, chill~ Oh ya, there was a bridge that link to where the building situated, and I have an interesting photo on that, LOL~

After that, we went back to the city centre. Kinda bad luck, because it was raining that day. And it was damn~ cold~ that night... =.=" I reach back around 11.30pm, with the very first time I know what is physical kinda shiver feeling >.<" I can't even spoke a word... It was a tired day, walking around, but it was fun. Anyway, did not manage to blog that night, too tired. So, these were my Manchester trip info. Will let ya'll see more of my pictures next time, will figure out a way to do so ASAP, LOL~ Please enjoy few of it from my trip first. Until then, ADIOS~ ^_^

Manchester United Stadium (outdoor view)

Manchester United Stadium (indoor view)

Players Changing Room (LOL~)

Only six of us went in ^_^

Manchester Trip :: Part 1 ::

Ah~ Just came back from pub after World Cup 2006 final match (I will update you guys about this in my coming post, after I finish about my Manchester trip, ok? LOL~) Yup, about my Manchester trip, I left at 8.15am yesterday for the bus to Manchester, and it took an hour to reach there from Liverpool. Reach Manchester around 10am, we went to Chinatown for a while and then headed to Manchester Art Gallery. Erm... Im not kinda fond of art stuffs, so can't touch on that too much. But I did took some photos over there, some cute ones, nice ones, and also meaningful ones. LOL~

Anyway, after the Manchester Art Gallery tour, my friend's friend, who have been staying at Manchester for 3 years, guided us on our tour. ^_^ First, we went for our lunch. LOL~ We went to eat Dim Sum, LOL~ HAPPIE~ Miss my Har Kau Siew Mai so much, finally I had the chance to eat it over here... YUMMY~ (My dear friends, Dim Sum after I go back to Malaysia can postpone, mamak and Bak Kut Teh can have the priority, LOL~) It was very very nice, I ate my Har Kau Siew Mai, which I loved most in Dim Sum delicacies, took some of others also, porridge, Chee Cheong Fun and so on, YUMMY~ It was the very first time I ate until I FULL since I was in Liverpool >.<" It costs me 5 pound = RM35, consider an "ok" price. I still remember I went SS2 for Dim Sum with my buddies after my last semester exam that time, and it cost me more than that... because I forgot to pay for parking and kena saman >.<" (Damn it!)

After lunch, we went to Castlefield (though I am not quite familiar with the name and the place). But, just as its name, it was a castle, with field. =.=" We took some photos over there and then headed to Manchester United Stadium. Along our walk to the bus which will take us to MU Stadium, we passed by Museum of Science and Industry Manchester, did not go in because most of us are not really "into" these kinda museum stuffs. So, we continue our walk, passed by Hilton Manchester, with a very very nice building structure. We went to the city centre, and somehow it looks like KL's Bukit Bintang and also One-Utama, nice and happening place. A lot of branded stores around, LOL~ (though its on summer sale, still it is quite expensive) =.=" We reached the bus stand and took the bus heading to MU Stadium.

For MU Stadium story and photos, please stay tuned to http://fxcked-up.blogspot.com LOL~ I have to break my Manchester trip's story into 2 or 3 parts, because I have to upload the photos, will be a long post if I finish it in one shot. So, please be patient my dear friends, will continue my stories in my coming post. In the mean time, please enjoy the photos I took. Until then, cheers my mates! Muaks~ ^_^

An art work in Manchester Art Gallery - "Life Is Good In Manchester"

Group photo @ Castlefield

Hoay Nee & Me @ Castlefield

**Sorry my mates, face some difficulties while trying to upload my photos. If possible will try again in new post tomorrow, hopefully will be ok, else I think ya'll have to go into my friendster account to view. Anyway, sorry about that. >.<"

:: sad :: (I have a lot of nice photos to share)

The Royal Opera - TURANDOT

I woke up in the middle of the night, found out a good news and a bad news. The good news gave me a sense of relief, the bad news makes me real sad. Anyhow, as I am not going out with my friends today, I slept till 1pm or 2pm, when my gastric strikes again. Sitting in my room for the whole afternoon, realised that sometimes, "things" happened, and it is out of our control. There are so lot of things in this world, so lot of things that are going to happen, whereby all those things are seem to be so predictable, yet so out of our control... (Hmm... seems like too complicated, I guess some of you might think this is crap =.=" ) But anyway, I just think it is time for me to let go everything, not to think anything anymore. I would not have cared about the past because I could not change it; I would not have cared about the future because it is predictable but uncontrollable; I would just care about the present, about myself, not others, not anymore. Until the day I meet them again, my family, my friends, I will continue being the one who cares again (~CRAP~)

I sat, I chat, until 6pm. My buddy came back from Wirral, and asked me to get ready for the opera show we are going to watch. This is an event called "BP summer big screens". We have to go to Clayton Square, Liverpool (somewhere not far from where I stay) for this free ballet and opera, broadcast live from the Royal Opera House to Big Screens around UK. The title of this opera is "Turandot". The story takes place in legendary ancient China, in Peking. A cold-hearted princess, Turandot, have to married and prepared to rule the kingdom because of her weak and old father's will. She has sworn once that no man shall possess her, and she offered a chance to her suitors : if one of them is capable to answer her riddles, then she will marry him. If he fails, he must die. A prince falls in love with her, and solves her riddles. He wins her hand, but he wants also to win her heart. He gives her a chance to defeat him, as she does not know his name : if she can discover his identity before dawn, he will die. So, what happened in the end? (If interested to know the ending, again, ask me for the answer, LOL~)

It was a very cold night, and I am sitting outdoor, with my friends, and whole bunch of old, opera lovers. =.=" Though it is just a screen and some of my friends left in the middle of the show, I sat till the end of the show.

Clayton Square, Liverpool

Ya'll might think I am sick, or a bit crazy, but it is a fascinating opera show! (though it was kinda weird watching British acting as Chinese =.=" ) But, it was such a nice show, with a very strong orchestra band, and great vocals of their main actors and actresses. Indescribable feelings, I could just say, BRAVO~!! These are few lines that I liked from the show: (though I think it sounds funny when the characters presented these lines)

"Her fragrance fills the air, it fills my soul"

"Such love, secret and unconfessed, makes the tortures sweet"

"I hated you for that... for that I loved you"

The opera - "Turandot"

This show was great, and it was something that makes my day better. ^_^ Took some photos today, I guess tomorrow photo session will be a greater one, LOL~ Manchester, I'm coming!! LOL~ Will update you guys about my trip tomorrow or the day after, hope it will be a nice one. Have to sleep now, going to depart at 8.15am. ^_^ Good night mates, cheers! Muaks~

My buddy - Gie & Me

My housemates (except Daniel on the left =.=" )

W5 Weekend Starts Early~

My weekend starts early for this week, LOL~ HAPPIE~ Do not need to go for class today, just went to collect my assignment's result, that's all (old rules, ask me if ya'll wanna know about it) ^_^ Anyway, going to be free for the coming three days, my friends have already got their plans for it, and i'll be going along too...

So, tomorrow's plan is --> take ferry to Wirral. Im not going for this, because... erm... not quite interested in it. But... there is always a BUT... I'll be going to Manchester on Saturday, LOL~ which I am more interested and excited about going there... And of course, photo shooting session will be open again, will keep you guys updated if possible... HAHAHA~

Hibernating for these few days, so not much I can talk about right now. I did not start my drama series session either, because these few days Im in a kinda tough situation, serious stuffs happened...Sigh! Anyway, as I said, who am I? LOL~ Happie go luckie... Shall make things back to normal soon... (Stephen Chow's movies does helps A LOT in this depression period, LOL~)

Hopefully I can share something fun with you guys after my trip to Manchester (hopefully the plan is still on) Until then... Cheers~ ^_^

Hibernating~ Two Months To Go...

AH~ Finally, passed up my stupid assignments, what a relief! Dear God, though I've been working til 6 in the morning, I do not ask for more. In fact, please give me a PASS, that is enough for me, I do not care about 1st class, 2nd class nor 3rd class, like a friend of mine said: "I know what is economy class lar! Who cares?" LOL~

Anyway, have not blog for a long time (kinda long compare to the duration I updated my post last time), and I am not like my other friends who can be busy, but blog and get a 1st class at the same time (Damn! How they did that?). I have been kinda moody few days ago, but did not really know how to release my pressure, but I do found out how others did, LOL~ There are people who screamed in the middle of the night (like what I loved to do when I'm staying at Setapak), there are people who ate the hell out them, there are people who locked themselves in their rooms, just like what I did, and so on.

The most interesting part I found out is that no matter how busy we were, my friends still manage to blogged, and it was meant to release their pressures and also make complaints about our dearest "friendly Iqbal" (my summer program leader). One of our friend had actually recomposed the lyrics from the song "Dad, I'm home" by Jay Chou, (rap you know!). And he did a GREAT job on that, haha... earned the grammy award credited by us... My my~ mass comm students do have these kinda talents, LOL~ The song is called "Iqbal", LOL~ And his name "Iqbal" is translated to chinese = "Yi Ba"; "Ba" = "dad", OMG~ like what it says in the lyrics, "I call you dad, you hit my mom, is that correct?" kinda funny, talks about how he treated us so differently when in Malaysia and over here, saying different things all the times depend on his precious mood, making changes all the time and let us rush the hell out of our assignments... This guy expressed all of our feelings thoroughly in the song, BRAVO~!

Another friend is kinda extreme in his thinking, he wrote a blog that says: "If I have a knife now, if there is no laws in this world, if murder does not mean anything, he'll go stab 'kao kao' out of that Singaporean!!" LOL~ This one is nice, I hope I can do that to a lot of people, but i'll stab the Singaporean 1st too...LOL~ Anyway, during this "depression" period, everyone was moody yet unhappy of being here, at Liverpool. It is not as fun as we thought, it is not as fun as others thought. As a conclusion, from my opinion, it sucks! ^_^

During my depression period, many of my best friends tried to comfort me, be there for me and gave their supports. I would like to thank them over here. The most important person I wanna thank, is a very best friend of mine, being there for me everytime I'm not in a great mood, when I'm sad, during the time I felt that I'm going to collapse, and also during this depression period. He is good at analyzing, he understands me well, never pissed me off even when what he said is a fact (people do get pissed when they were told about something which is the fact, it is something people do not like to listen, isn't it? LOL~), he was a great friend to have. Damn! I must get someone like him as my bf in the future, (not asking for much ain't I?) LOL~ Anyway, thanks for your support, appreciate it very much, know you will be there for me no matter who I am, I love you as my best friend too, MUAKS! Lots of kisses for you... LOL~ U too, please stay charming, stay cool and handsome always!

Feeling better now, hahahahahahaha~ (going crazy actually...) I just wanna laugh the hell out of me, its a great day today! Two months to go... Anyway, it is time for me to hibernate as there is nothing much to do for this whole week, but will try to get ya'll up-to-date, maybe about some philosophies from drama series again I guess? LOL~ Until then, cheers my mates!

Thanks again to all of my best friends! Love you all! MUAKS! A lot of kisses for ya'll too... LOL~ ^_^