:: CLICK~! ::

Day after day, sigh~ It's near to the end of the year 2006... Time flies; it does not stop while I remain marching on the same spot I was in three months ago... What could I do actually to make time stops for me, or what could I do to follow up the steps? :: CONFUSED ::

God is trying to tell me to enjoy the time He gave me right now, cause I received these messages from people around even strangers. He said, "no worries, do not frown, it is time for you to enjoy & rest, as you might need to prepare for a harder path ahead..." Is it so? Or am I trying to rationalise all the things I am doing recently?

I have been kind of 'stable' in my emotions lately, maybe the Onion Theory really works? Or time tells us everything? Makes everything clear, but at the same time makes something blur & to forget. Or am I getting tired; tired of... who knows... being rest-LOTS, while seeing others are being restless??

Songs helps to turn back time; makes me gain the exact feeling of the past. I was listening to this very song 'Photo' by Ryan Cabrera; & it brings me back exactly to the time when I first reach Liverpool, cause I was listening to that song starting from the day I stepped on the land of UK. It was just like the movie "Click" - Click~! I was back to 2nd June 2006, sitting alone in my new room, eyes on my monitor, listening to this song... The song that represent that moment, my song...

"A photo can say a thousand things

But it can't say the million things I wanna say

A photo can capture the way we were

But it can't capture the way we are

'Cause you're far away

What it's like to know you

What it's like to touch you

When you told me that you loved me

Were those just words

You can't tell me you don't need me

And I know that hurts

'Cause I'm looking at your picture

'Cause it's all I've got

Maybe one day you and me will have one more shot

Timing lost minutes and moments

And I might be lonely girl

But I'm not afraid

In a second

It all comes right back to me

Nothing's forgotten now

Yeah everything's saved

What it's like to touch you

What it's like to know you..."

Click~! I am back to where I am suppose to be; sitting in front of my laptop, typing this post of mine, listening to this song...

"What is in the past, is in the past; what will be there in the future, is in our hand..."

I suddenly miss the time that I could get so alone, so apart from the place I used to be... I miss it so much...

Time keeps me waiting...

Have been staying in KL for almost two weeks doing nothing... Sigh~! Time keeps passing by & it still keeps me waiting... I am confuse, I do not understand now, why does time keeps me waiting like this? Why is it giving me so much time, so much free time, & what is the reason behind? What does it wants me to do with all those time? How can I fully utilize the time given?

CHANCES~! I think... Time is giving me chances, chances to do everything I could do, before... before I could not do it anymore... before it is too late... (sounds a bit pessimist >.<) What I meant to express was, to take the chances, when it is there for you, when there is time for you... There is just once in a lifetime that you can live through that very day, it is you who make the differences on that day; make it special, make it memorable, make it colourful, make it happy enough to remember & to keep it in mind...

& I am asking myself everyday, why am I wasting my time like this, wasting my days on thinking... & then I tried to meet up with friends, do not want to waste my time just feeling uncertain everyday... I spent my time with friends chating, gaming, doing whatever things that I might not be able to do in the future (not that I am saying I am going to die or what, but I might not have the free time maybe in the future, correct?) I am trying to view these time given, view it as a chance, to do whatever I want to do, & the only chance that I have to take. If it is to let me rest, I shall take this opportunity to rest before I started on another journey in my life...

I do not know what kind of person I am, & I doubt that I took & treasure every chances given in my life. But I know I tried to explore & create every chances I could in my life, for myself, when I find worth it... & I do tried hard... Anyway, people fight for chances, & I tried my best to do so as well... But treasure it when it is there, cause creating one for yourself is tough~! ^_^

"Learn as if you were to live forever;

Live as if you were to die tomorrow~!"

Until then, cheers my friends~! ^_^

My Lou Gong~ Justin~

Being YOU = Yorself

Have not blog for weeks again, I guess you all have expected that (LOL~ ya... I am still not the a good condition for blogging...) Anyway, sometimes I do feel like blogging, writing down my feelings, my days, but it is just not those days it used to be anymore... No more bloody assignments, no more half an hour walk in the morning everyday, no more spaggetti & frozen foods, & more... & there goes my blogging inspiration as well...

I am still in the mist of problems, still wondering around everyday, sigh! Life could be just as bored no matter you are too free or too busy (only if busy on things you are interested, its another story of course ^_^) Here I am, blogging in a different space, different atmosphere, different emotion again... Time keeps me waiting, I do not no why... Time changes situation, changes feelings, changes your view, changes almost everything it can work its two little hands on...

Meet up with a close friend of mine today, as usual, we went for bowl, gaming, chating... & POOF~! Here came in the idea for this post... Ever wonder what kind of person you are in others' eyes? I do think about that sometimes, but ya know, you would never gonna get the answer by yourself, you are not anyone from those OTHERS... & if you go & ask others, they might not give the actual answer, because it is YOU who ask, not THEY who wanna tell... The answer might just be something you like to listen, or something you could not accept...

If you are a nice person, ever wonder what is that which keep those who likes you, those who loves you, those who been with you before, being attracted to you? What is the THING you have, but others --> not? If you are not a nice person, what is that bad thing about you which keeps others away from you? It is not those solid answers or characteristics that we can say it out loud, such as you are nice, loving, caring, etc. It is a kind of FEELING, a good feeling you gave to people, & you never knew it is there, & you would never knew how it is like... ^_^

That very close friend of mine, in all of a sudden, told me there is this thing about myself... & no matter how hard I try to get to know the exact feeling or characteristic that I have, I fail to know & understand; but it is good to know there is this THING there & makes you realise it IS there all these while... Maybe God wants me to know this badly as well, so at the same night, another best friend of mine (in all of a sudden, again, LOL~) told me the very same thing... My friend listed all those solid characteristics for me, & I feel that there are loads of people out there with the same characteristics he listed...& when I seek another answer from this friend of mine, he said:"Maybe because you are munyee..." ^_^

"I think that is the exact answer ," I said, ^_^ "No wonder I won't know how it feels, cause I do not even know who am I myself, do not even mention to see it from others' view & feelings"... & ya know, it feels good when you get to know from a true friend (in a sudden), that you are though ordinary, but special in a way ^_^ (it might be bad if it goes in another way round...)

Anyway, I wish everyone of you will get to know yourself more, & of course, it must happen in ALL OF A SUDDEN... (stricly no forcing, LOL~) You will get to know that though you are not a great person, though you have made mistakes, but you are not that bad after all... You are YOU, YOURSELF, & that makes YOU special, makes you SHINE... Until then, cheers~ ^_^

"When you are true to yourself, true to your heart,

You are special in a way, & you will shine..."