1st of August

WOW~ It was a damn cold day, drizzling, strong wind blowing, and my room was like having an air-con in it, freaking cold~ I was lazy to get up this morning, even thought of not going for class since I totally cannot get what the lecturer was saying (his french accent was very very strong >.<") Yet, I got up in the end, headed to class on a gloomy day, with a gloomy look on my face. Did not get enough sleep on weekdays because I always stayed up late for my emails, and sometimes I woke up in between for it, I never do mind about that though, ^_^

My mind works harder on gloomy days, I do not know why. When the weather is cold and gloomy, I started to think a lot; I started to miss old times, miss my friends, miss home, miss those who I seldom see, even if I was in Malaysia. Therefore, I looked for chances to meet them up. I always believe that chance will not always be there for you, you have to seek for chances. Chance could be gone just like that, and it was always useless to wait, wasting time. In my life, I seek for chances in certain aspects, not every aspects, courage to seek is limited though. Yet, I tried on a lot of ways to seek for chances before; it might not guarantee you a return, it might be an outcome that disappoints you a lot, but as long as you tried before, it costs you nothing, agree? On the other hand, you might get what you want in the end, so isn't it worth for a shot?

Life is short, I do hope I can live the best out of it. I do not agree that "the best" would be getting high grades in school, having a high income job, so-called young and successful, driving Merz or stuffs, NAH~ I do not care about those much, partly because I know I do not possess the "will" to work hard and achieve all those, and also because I believe in destiny. In life, there are things that are meant to be yours, and it will be yours in the end; when it is not, it is not. Have you not heard of this song: "Que Sera Sera, whatever will be, will be..."

When I said to live the best out of my life, I guess is to enjoy eating, enjoy hanging out with friends, enjoy being with people you are happy with, enjoy watching movies, enjoy music, enjoy sleeping as well, LOL~ I guess to live the best out of life, is to do whatever you like to do, because there is not much chance to do so. Who knows, life is short, and you would not know how short it could be; you might not have the chance to do those things anymore sooner or later, agree? So what's with the hard-core studies, money, Merz? You might not be able to enjoy what you really want (Or you might just want those or nothing at all, LOL~) But what if you could not achieve those which are so far away from you, and at the same time you are losing the most simple and happiest things that are in front of you? ( please bare in mind that I am not encouraging people to ignore studies, ignore work and stuffs, just at the same time, enjoy those that can brings you happiness)

Life should be spent by doing something you like and you are happy with, why spent living a miserable one? Do try to be happy in life, it is not easy though, because life is tough, but do TRY. Life is tough, mistakes are unavoidable. Never draw yourself back, as life making mistakes is not only more honourable, but more useful than a life spent doing nothing at all (only applies to mistakes done UNINTENTIONALLY and WITHOUT BAD INTENTION). ^_^

Anyway, above is purely my own opinion, without the intention to affect any party. Feel free to comment, but please do not crap. ^_^ Waiting for my emails, shall sleep soon. I miss you all my friends, I will be back soon, LOL~ Until then, stay tuned to http://fxcked-up.blogspot.com Adios~

Love guys who played piano, LOL~ I miss my piano too... ^_^

A nice song by Daniel Powter - "Bad Day" (I love this mv~)