Monday Green ~ Who Am I ??

LOL~ I guess most of ya'll will wonder why is it Monday "Green" instead of Monday "Blue", this is what I told a friend of mine yesterday... "We all have Monday Blues, but when every Monday the first person we gonna meet is Iqbal (our summer program leader), oh my, it becomes Monday "Green", where we feel sick and wanna vomit. =.=" Had my Monday Green today, and it is a very bad day for me. Anyway, as ya'll know, happy-go-lucky as I will always be. ^_^

I looked at my previous posts, I thought everyday, and I wonder, why is it so difficult for me to share something deep inside my heart with others? I do not have enough friends to share? Or are my friends so not trust-able? Nah... Neither... Have been this kind of person since long, I do not share much, keep everything to myself, selfish ain't I? Hmm... But I did told you guys how sucks my life is and how sucks being here right? LOL~ At least you guys know a little about me, don't cha?

I do not share is not because I do not have faith for my friends, it is just a way of mine for not making them worried, but in fact it still does makes them worried (as if I told ya'll everything then ya'll would not get worried =.="). If I tell my friends everything, I'll scared the hell out of them. This is what I learned long time ago, when I told a best friend of mine the problems that was bugging me. From that day onwards, I would not want my friends to worried anymore and never will let them shed a tear because of me. Maybe some of you think this is crap, because I have been such kinda person since long, nah... Nevermind, it is just one of the reason for me to hold on to that personality.

Who am I? Who I really am? I do not have any ideas either. There is a very great friend of mine always tells me how great I am. This best friend of mine always tells me that I am just like an angel down from heaven, how my smile makes everybody happy, how good-natured and humble I am, how my thinking and actions motivated this very best friend of mine, and A LOT. This friend of mine makes me feel I am great at times, "Thank you very much." ^_^ ( you know who I am referring to) Anyway, I told this friend of mine that day, it is hard to convince me that I am such a great person, because I know I am not. Everyone has their weakness isn't it? I have mine too, hope ya'll will let me know what is it by the way. LOL~

Anyhow, I found out that most of my best friends are worried about me, but at the same time, they have faith in me. Though they know I can't take very good care of myself, but "I WILL SURVIVE!" LOL~ Ain't I? That's Mun Yee, my friends would say (Allah~ then what is the point of worrying, right?). I do not know what kinda person I am, but I know what kinda person I am to them, I realised that "Wow, I never knew I am such a person!" Good or bad, at least I know more about myself.

Do not know why I wrote those craps above, but to all my dear friends, this is what I wanna tell you guys. "Need not worry about me, because you all know me well. And because of I am such a person that you all have faith in, I would not let you all down." Keep in mind of my smile, that is me, happy-go-lucky! ^_^ Cheers! Muaks~

P/S: I know there are some of you will be thinking of this while reading, "Who will worried about you, I even have my ownself to worried about!" LOL~ Those who are laughing now, you know who you are! Hahaha...