10 years later...

Hmm... Trying to post more frequent lately, but do not know why, since I am back to Malaysia, I feel like blogging in Chinese rather than in English. Maybe environment & location does causes some effects on blogging, I guess? ^_^ Anyway, did not have much to do at home lately, so I bought some books again to fill my time (chinese books, maybe that is the reason that makes me feel like blogging in Chinese again...)

I was thinking about a lot of things lately (I always did, my fav past time activity =.=") However, this question always appeared in my mind all these while, a question which related to the word "IF". IF, I did not went to KL for studies & pursue on another field, how would I be now? Then, I might not have the chance to go to UK for further studies, but where would I be by then? What kind of person would I be by then, with the lack of experiences, lack of the chance for being independant, lack of those qualities for being who I am now?

The main thing I thought of these differences in decision making, walking along a different route in life, was the people you met along this journey. Is it that if I did not study in this college, I would not get to know him or her; Is it that if I did not went to KL, I would met some very different people from those I know right now? Or would I get to know those people in my life now SOMEHOW? SOMEWHERE? This is fate, is it not? & everytime this FATE thing happens, it brings happiness or sadness in a way, even if you might just have this small little contact for just once in your life with this person. Recalling, is a stubborn kind of sun ray; sometimes, it still does burnt my shoulders in pain.

Do not look at things which can makes you cry,

it is the only way to stop your tears.

-Onion theory-

Every decision we made give changes to our life, our future. Looking back our past being who we are now, we realised that every step we took was almost different with how we thought our life would be at that very time when we are still in the mist of problems. For example, I thought I would not be going to UK because I did not plan to study advance diploma back then, ^_^ Who knows, I came back from UK for 2 months already. Me, far in 10 years ago, did not imagine that I would be here right now, did not even imagine I would go to UK & came back; how different are you now with the person you thought you would be, with the life you thought you would live?

There is a very nice guy character in the book I read; He seldom argues with people, seldom gets angry, smiles at almost every bad thing happened on him. I guess this is what an optimistic person should be, correct? ^_^ He said:" Since I was young, I am used to view current situation being a person I think I would be in 10 years later, so there is a lot of things that do not mind, such as getting the wrong balance from cashiers, or mistaken of meals served; I would not even mind of it 10 years later, so why would I wanna get angry right now?" We will only get angry when those things meant a lot to you & you truly know that you would still mind of it even 10 years later. Maybe there are things that we might not know we would still kept in mind 10 years later, but since we do not have hard feelings for it from the beginning, why do we wanna make it worse after years passed?

Fate between people is just like those small case that we should not put in our heart for a long period, because you might not care, or would not mind about this FATE thing 10 years later; we could not even control it, so why should we mind about it? When it meant to be yours, it will be yours in the end; if it does not meant to happened, it would not happened no matter what. Viewing things with an opened-heart, does not meant that you do not care, just that there are times we should let it be. You would not know what it will become 10 years later, wouldn't ya? ^_^

Enough for today, do not know whether you guys understand what the heck am I talking about; but if you DO know what am I talking about, hope it helps & gives ya'll some positive ideas about how things in life works. & of course, I hope I can cope with life as how I mentioned above & get things done well. Until then, ^_^ cheers~